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The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive. L.L (via fleurthorn)

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I feel pretty, pretty enough for you. I felt so ugly before, I didn’t know what to do. Sometimes is all I feel up to now, but it’s not worth it to you, ‘cause you gotta get high somehow. Is it destruction that you’re required to feel? Pretty (Ugly Before), Elliott Smith (via i-cant-tellyoumysecrets)

My edit//Another You by Of Mice & Men
Have you ever been so in love that your head spins? Have you ever been so in love you become infatuated with that person in every single way? I never thought it would be possible for someone like me. I never thought I deserved it. Then he came into my life in 2011 and proved me wrong. When I first met him I didn’t think much of it except that we were similar people who lived similar lives. After months of talking I started to realize he was more than just a mere friend, but how could I say that? I hated the way I looked, and acted. So I assumed everyone else did too, I still do. After 2 years of non-stop talking I knew how much he meant to me, but still I was unable to put that into words.. I was in such a dark time of my life I didn’t know what to do,I felt I had no one to turn to, and I felt like I was in love with someone who wouldn’t ever love me. That killed me, I tried to end my life, which as you can see failed. In the note I left I wrote about how much I loved him… When I was unconscious in the hospital my friend told him about the note, and he was shocked, and hurt. Shocked cause he couldn’t believe I liked him, when he liked me too, and hurt that I didn’t talk to him. 
        When I came to my senses, I was able to use my phone . I hadn’t known what to say to him, but he knew what to say to me. He tried to tell me he was a wrecking ball himself, that he loved me but feared if we dated he would ruin it. I told him that was my exact fear, cause I ruin everything I touch. I told him I loved him that day, and he told me he loved me too… A few days after that we started dating..
When we first started dating I was scared to death I was going to screw up, which a few months into it I did, I did a lot of bad stuff ( No I DID NOT cheat on him) that caused us to fight a lot and almost break up. But we worked it out always, and stayed strong through everything life threw at us. 
After a year and a month together the shock of my life came when I got the text. “The UHAUL Is reserved, ill be in New York tomorrow to stay.” I swear I never cried so much in my life. I was so scared, we were long distance for so long and now he was moving here. I was petrified he would see me and hate me. 
I slept about an hour that night, the next day I tried so hard to prepare myself to meet him. I arrived at his apartment and knocked on his door, with no answer I stood outside and turned to my friend who was there and talked to her, told her I was scared and wanted to leave. As soon as I had said that the door flew open behind me . I looked at the man I fell in love with, standing in front of me , actually in person and not over some silly phone screen. I hugged him so tight and began crying profusely. I have never been happier in my whole life…

We have been together now for a year and almost 6 months, its crazy, I never could have imagined my life turning out this way. If you asked me about any one of those pictures, I could tell you all about that day, what we did, where we went, and how we felt. Each one of those pictures has 1,000 memories for me. I am so deeply in love with Chris it scares me honestly. Hes everything to me, and I don’t know if that’s a bad thing. I don’t care though. We love each other, we love each other so wholeheartedly. I would NEVER trade him for anything, not even 19034893849348934 dollars.

I Love You Christopher J Van, I always will this I promise to you. ♥♥♥  
  • Kellin Quinn: wrists are for bracelets not for cutting
  • Vic Fuentes: just wait things out. It won't be bad forever. I promise. I love you.
  • Austin Carlile: if you're a fan of hurting others, talking down to, or trying to bring others down, then never call yourself a fan of mine.
  • Alex Gaskarth: I want you to fucking pinky promise me you won't do it. No fan of mine will kill themselves. Don't do it. For me. I love you.



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I want your heart, baby, straight- no chaser. I wanna feel it in my head when I wake up. The Cab (via comealilcloser-walkalilslower)

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Sometimes, I just want to sit outside with someone and talk all night.


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